Been working on something but I couldn’t finish writing it so here’s another entry stemmed from shower thoughts.
State 3 things that come to mind when you recall the persons you(‘ve) love(d).
M: Temper, Paranoia, Love.
D: Patience, Wisdom, Old age.
JT: Tan, Pharmacy, Moon-eyed smiles.
XM: Piano, Gentleness, Height.
A: Chicken rice, Dance, Cigarettes.
X: Singing, Strip poker, Smile.
T: Bartending, Martini, Solid friendship.
D: Toiletries in a Topshop tote bag, Striped shirts, Eyes.
H: Social circle, Holidays, Honeycolor.
A: Magic, Taiwan, Belly.
Z: Heartfelt conversations, Support, Loyalty.
LB: White sheets, Baker & Cook, Warmth.
Y: Golden coins, Geisha, Tango.
C: Handwritten notes, Candles, Guilt.
Perhaps… background stories for the next time when I feel more capable of narrating, or when it stops aching.
Edit: I suppose that all of us want to remember only the best, positive things.
Edit 2: Realised that I did not love myself (enough) because I didn’t write about the 3 things I’d remember myself for. Yet the 3 things came out really pessimistically:
Nostalgia, Sadness, Inability to adjust.
It may get better, and it hopefully does. Slightly tired.